Futures

I've sat here a long time with nothing really to write. I'm confused. There's lots I have to say. I want to save the world just as much as I did when I wasn't that screwed up. That said, I'm not really that screwed up. I'm fixing it, or allowing it to be fixed. I know that could sound unbelievable but that's kinda how it is. I know the extent of my screwed-up-ness. I know that over the last few months, I've tended towards sucky but right now, I know that and it's being sorted.

But then there's this other thing. I hate social work. I hate it. I mean, sure it could just be first year annoyingness where it'll be annoying for the first bit until it gets better than it is now but I really don't like the theory as much as I like the practical stuff. I've decided I want to work. I don't just want work though. I want to work for God's glory. I want the mission fields more now than I ever have. I want Asia. I want to be a teacher to kids in Thailand or Cambodia or India. I haven't really decided yet. I want to play soccer in the streets with kids. I want that life. I really want it and teaching and education gives me something to take to them. I still want to save the world. Who knows? Maybe after that, I'll come back with fresher perspectives enough to save my own backyard. So I'm thinking maybe a graduate diploma in Teaching and Learning (primary). I'd like to work here in NZ for a bit maybe and then go. That would be mantis. I want to teach kids who want to be taught. I want to teach.

That's about the extent of my confusion. I just have to get past the hard part of applications for the programme. I need to find me some referees. This is kinda exciting me. I hope this is the right thing to do. Pray for me haha.

Lots of love,
Lans